I'm Alright

My uncle passed away yesterday at 1 plus in the afternoon, losing a 2-month long battle with cologne cancer.

What was I doing at 1 plus in the afternoon? Probably joking and talking cock with Lang and Elt in the 4H classroom. I only received the news at 4 plus while answering nature's call in the Admin Block toilet. Great.

The thing is, I'm not like breaking down and weeping or something like what my elder brother did, instead I just don't feel a thing, I'm getting on with life as usual. Nothing's changed and yup, I was never really close to my uncle, but after his unfortunate demise I just have this looming sense of regret that I never really treasured him.

But still I wonder: Why him? He was only 48 years old when he passed away... why him of all people? My uncle has led a difficult life as a supervisor in a factory, supporting a family of 3 and is a very humble person. Why did he have to have terminal cancer in the 1st palce? His daughter is only 2 years old this year! When I think of it I grow pissed lol, its like there are so many assholes in this world but they get the good breaks. My uncle, a kind and hardworking person, had to pass away so suddenly.

The last time I saw my uncle alive was on sunday night. I went to visit the hospice in which he resided. The doctor said he had two months more to live.

He passed away two days later.

So much for medical science in the modern world.

Listening to "Gone" by Switchfoot now... really suits the mood now huh?

NBCCB

This has been a pretty bad week for me. I'm really pissed with the following groups of people:
1. Interact Club
They have forgotten how much work and sacrifice I've done for the club, giving the best interactor awards to other people just because I wasn't in the club for 4 years. I mean what kind of excuse is that? There are people who can just join the club for 5 months and they can become President/ Committee members? Yea wth man... stupid assholes. What's more, I take the initiative to do all the shit and I don't even get no shit in return. I volunteered to usher yesterday, gave out plates to visitors, entertain them etc and all the directors were just stoning at one side. Wow, serving with love, we're sure. Needless to say, I'm completely disillusioned with the stupid international action movement. Helping people in need? Right...
Anyway, here are some photos from the installation:







With all the Sec 4 Jokers who showed up.
Note that Aaron's eyes always seem to be closed.












Aaron: Awww... I can't stand all the attention. *blushes*













With good buddy and fellow dq i/c Jevon Yeoh.








Aaron and I decided to have a hot debate on why Jeff Lopez said he said he didn't want tekua in his bak chor mee when he didn't say that he didn't want tekua in his bak chor mee.







"Firstly, I think he was too busy trying to find the gahmen form in his briefcase to really think about what he was saying..."





















"But I thought he said he submit that one orreddi... oh crap let's not argue about that too..."







Then we decided to play the piano!








Aaron: Yay! I know how to play mombasa on the piano! Wait something doesn't sound right...
















...I think there's something stuck inside...








Okay basically that's it for installation.

2. Backstabbers
Lol I think I must be wary about people who will badmouth me behind my back and spread bad or false rumours about me to my friends. Oh, and there are people whom I thought were my buddies but in the end I guess they thought otherwise about me. Sometimes I wonder: why be a nice person when the other party doesn't appreciate it and even loathes you as a result? Yah,, its true that close friendships are very hard to forge sometimes. We can never know who our true friends are until we spend lots of time knowing each other. Yah, just some food for thought la. Not gonna start ranting on and off about backstabbers and ingrates. But I'm extremely thankful for close friends such as Lang, Aaron, elton, Jun Wei, HZ, Kennedy etc. I know I can count on therse people. xP

3. Myself
Somehow I just feel very pissed with myself. Not sure why but yeah I just hate myself for being so stupid at times. Sometimes I guess its the way I talk or maybe its the way I feel that just sends the wrong message to others. This usually results in lots of miscommunication which could turn ugly if not dealt with properly. Furthermore, I should learn not to dao people. Even if people dao me I shall not dao them back, I mean it really sucks to be daoed but at least they can't say that I didn't take the 1st step. And maybe I shouldn't render myself to be so bulliable by being too nice to some people as well. Yeah...

Recently, I met an RGS girl in the gym. She's kinda nice and has a very pretty smile. Kinda puts me in a dilemna now becuase I was the one who took the initiative in the 1st place and now if I cut myself some slack I think she won't be very happy too. And I'm really plagued with guilt too because I know I shouldn't be doing this either; but what's the point of staying true when the person never really reciprocates? Or maybe patience is the key... I shall wait for a good solution to this girl problem...
Anyway this has been my longest post to date and I hope you guys have enjoyed it. =)

fade to black

The mornings seem to start later
Though they start with dull, grey and overcast skies.
Through all the rigour and packed schedules
Worksheets and other nonsensical commitments
You can possibly think of.
But still I wonder
Will you still be there
When all the darkness fades away
Into the light of dawn?

what a weekend

I really think I should mind my language, I've been swearing one too often these days.
Anyway, I had chalet with the dramafeste guys on fri. THe bbq was nice thanks to Jun Wei and I really enjoyed it. Played corridor soccer which was really quite fun as well and you don't need skill to own, just ram haha. Watched catwoman, little snippets of house of wax as we were in the room playing guitar and recording podcasts and national security. Ok, in all I only had an hour of sleep, I rock yes I know.
Walked to changi Village after the chalet and all of us were talking about the hanson-seng henk scandal, the condom that aaron filled with water and burst it in the process and singing Bee Gees songs haha. This was followed by a brief breakfast of beancurd in the hawker centre. Home after that to do History and head to church for fellowship to play guitar for praise session.
I left halfway during church to go for planetshakers concert at the expo. Well, it was VERY crowded haha, so we were really compacted. I helped Kennedy smuggle in his chicken whopper Jr under my coolio Pullover!
Anyway, Jevon and I now know why the band is called "Planetshakers". Because it really shakes your ass off lol. When we gripped a balloon, you can really hear the vibrations of the subwoofer pulsating throught the air it contained haha. I think I lost half of my hearing during the concert, and I swear I will not be attending anymore rock concerts anytime soon.
Rushed home as fast as possible cause of my 11 pm curfew, arrived home 15 minutes late but thankfully I wasn't grounded. =)
Church today and I've just finished history! Now I can go take a little rest before rushing chem and physics soon hah.
Okay check back later.

6 weeks of hell gone for 4 weeks of mayhem

Okay, I managed to survive the past week of tests and performance tasks. Yeah, what a relief. Now I'm caught up in a 4 week torture period going for useless and boring "advanced" lessons lol. Got stuck in a class full of sec 3s and I'm the only sec 4, damn. So much for being sick on the 1st day of the sign-ups.
So what can I do? lol. Just have to endure and slog through these 4 weeks without letting my normal studies slip too badly. I really hope that I will be disciplined enough to start studying on me own haha, especially integration and the probability syllabus which is probably going to be tested in the form of probably a TA. That remains in a very high probability. Okay that's not funny so ignore that.
Saturady was newspaper collection which went on pretty well, except that many of the sec 2s Prem, Jun Wei and I were in charge of were assholes. To tuition after that and fellowship. On Sunday we rushed our SS project, only to discover that we couldn't extract the videos using Jeremy's camcorder. So yeah, we did some of the editing today. (And I hate being the &#*(@^#&*!!! narrator lol)
Oh, I'm sorry my friends if I told any of you that I could make it for FOP but did not go. Seriously did not have time and I could not go on sunday either because I had to celebrate my dad's birthday online. I don't see my dad very much, so you guys know how much it means to me =)
Okay, tommorow we're doing SS again. Cya later.